Me
Monday, April 11, 2011
missing my boy
I am sitting here looking through photos of Jarren and I just can not believe that he has lost his battle with cancer and went home to be with our Lord. so many thoughts run through my head every day and not one of them every has my by in heaven before me I know it doesn't make sense but neither does this world we have put in. so many of us go about living our lives without a thought to anyone else outside of the ones we see and we never would imagine that any of our children would every get cancer that is just not something kids should get... Now here I sit with a huge hole in the center of my chest and my first born son, the one i have had a name for for close to 15 years, and the one i will never get to watch play ball of March in the band because of CANCER. why? why do kids get cancer? why did my boy get cancer? what purpose does it serve? I still see people going about their own lives like no body else is in the world but them! how do we change that or are we to selfish to change? why can't we care and love without needing something in return? why cant we just love like Jesus and not have a political statement behind it? why cant we stop being so greedy and selfish?
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Hey Jason,
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your thoughts about Jarren today. I don't know why he snuck into my heart, but he did & I almost feel like I knew the little guy. Probably because he and my son could've been friends.
I am sorry to hear about how the emptiness in your heart, that hole in your chest, is so painful. I still pray for you guys when I think of you ... and we can only hope that God would make us all more sensitive to what we are all going through.
It helps to know that we're not alone and that God is the one who can heal our pains & restore joy to our hearts, even out of hardships & loss.
Take care & hugs to you, Heather & cute Vincent (he is SO cute!!)
God bless,
Coppelia