BumbleBee

Bumblebee

I have written about signs before.  I suppose I'm lucky in the fact that I do see them.  Or maybe it's because my eyes are wide open and I so desperately want something tangible to hold onto; something to bring comfort.

When we arrived in Maui shortly after laying our precious Jarren's earthly "shell" to rest, I was having a really hard time.  As Jason and I talked I told him that I needed God to send me a sign.  Something to let me know our baby was okay even though I knew he was in heaven.  We prayed together that night and Jason asked God to reveal something to me. 

That next day the three of us walked down to the beach.  We passed by many big, black bees flittering from flower to flower and thought nothing of it.  After a few hours at the beach we decided to go back to the kiddie pool at our timeshare.

While in the pool a little bumblefee flew down and landed by the edge of the pool.  My immediate response to Jason was to "smash it."  Surely some barefoot victim would step on it and get stung.  Jason disagreed with me and watched the bee intently.  He even splashed water on it a few times and the bee refused to leave until we finally got out of the pool.

The next morning Jason was watching Jarren's favorite movie, Transformers, with Vincent.  There is a particular scene where Optimus Prime (the leader of the Autobots aka the good guys) introduces Sam (the lead character) to the rest of the transformers.  As Optimus makes his way around the Autobots he says to Sam, "and you already know your guardian, Bumblebee."  Epiphany!  Oh my goodness!  Bumblebee.  Guardian.  God sent the bumblebee for us.  That's Jarren!  Thank you God!  I was elated.

During the remainder of our time in Maui we noticed many bumblebees.  Granted, there are a lot of beautiful flowering Hibiscus around but I seemed to be followed by the bees.  Many of which would randomly float up beside me in the middle of the ocean.

I don't know if there is a particular "season" for bees (Spring would seem likely) but I've been comforted by the fact that I've seen them in the middle of our cold (okay, 60 degree) winter since we've been home.  The other day I got in the car and one landed on my windshield momentarily.  As I pulled up to a stop sign last week with my mom and sister in the car, another bee landed on the windshield and stayed there as I was driving for quite a while.  Of course it was one big sob fest.

My friend Stephanie reminded me that before Bumblebee, Buzz Lightyear was Jarren's ultimate hero and what sound does a bee make?  Buzz. Yet another sign that those bees came from above.
I am so thankful for these signs.

And yet another sign for the BumbleBee foundation; while we had Jarren's teachers over for dinner they had told us that for 20 years Jarren's schools logo was a bear and on september 2010 the month Jarren started scholl the logo changed to yeah you guessed it a BumbleBee!! I think GOD was part of that don't you?